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Yeah.
Blog they say.
One post per day they say.
Yeah.

. . .

I'M TO LAZY TO POST ONCE EVERY DAY.

'cause life happened. Stuff happened. Games happened. Anime happened. Manga happened. Covers happened. Lives happened. Fangirlism happened. Writing happened (FOR ONCE. YEEESSSSSS. But I'm still to lazy to reply to RP's everyday.) Lazyness happened. *shot'd and kill'd*

Ain't that actually what you should write 'bout? Things happening in your daily life? Dreams and thoughts? Guess I would if it wasn't for that when I thought of something to write I don't feel like writing it anymore. Like all the stories I have in my head, I think through them througly, not missing one single detail, evolving the chars in every way I can. But in the end I don't feel like writing it, 'cause I got the story done. It's not fun writing a story you know exactly how it goes. At least not for me. And that's probably why I usually don't get anything done, I should stop at the character and then just write. See what it leads to instead of planning it out.
I'll try that. One day. When I'm not so lazy OTL.

But that is how I manage to stop fangirl a serie ('cept for Sengoku Basara. I WILL NEVER STOP FANGIRLING IT. NEVER.). Thinking out a char (who usually has a relationship with some char in the end, since I'm such a sucker like that.), trying out different scenorias (TEACH ME HOW TO SPELL PLEASE.) and see what they lead to. If I don't like them I change them 'til I think they're enjoyable, at least for me.
And when the story is perfect and nice to me, I just drop it. Sure I still like the serie, but not as much as before. I think Sengoku Basara and Natsume Yuujinchou is the only series I'd love to rewatch as much as I can. 'specially Sengoku Basara.


*real time pause FOR A WHOLE F****N' DAY.* (to save the children's ear that somehow may manage to search and come up to this blog. ....No, I don't belive they will either.)

This is actually were it should be a new blog post. But everyone know I'm lazy.
BUT I WILL KEEP THIS SHORT SO NO PROBLEM. *[insert manry-Kamina pose here]*

So I've been looping Himawari's version of Lost and Found these past hours. I dunno why. I should change cover now.
But the more I listen to this song and the more I read the translation the more I like it. And the more I compare it with me. But I guess with this kind of song everyone does? So it's kinda wrong to say it matches me perfectly. Which it not even does. It's mainly that part with running away. I've always been shy in some or another way, even tho' it may not always show. I think it was this year I really started to talk more, it comes easier now. But I'm still having a hard time racing my hand and answer the questions the teachers asks. Which I should do if I want my good grades. Last year now. Next year the "real" thing begins.
Anyway, funny thing is when I'm having a speech I'm really comfortable when I start talking. I even forget how long I've been standing there. Not that it usually ain't to long, 5 mins max ('cept for that one time at that Swedish class when we had to talk about the book we've read that last half of a year. It took 18 friggin' minutes. 18 FRIGGIN' MINUTES. OTL).
Well, back to the point. I've always been told my teachers that I should talk more, race my hand, let the world know I'm here as well. But I've never really had the courage too. What if I say the wrong thing? What if they don't like me?
Still now, I mainly talk to the ones I know, it's hard to talk to the others. Maybe not when I'm doing things with them, like a project or playin' something, but between the classes. In the classes. It's so hard to take out the courage to ask what they've done under the weekend. Yesterday. Do you play games? Are you on the computer a lot? Those regular things. School stuff is usually really easy to talk about, and maybe I should start there. And then try to talk about the other stuff.
But still. It's so hard to ask if I can sit with them when my usual friends are sick. Makes me feel so bad. Eat lunch with them 'cause I don't got anyother and then just leave them.
But since they tried soemtimes to talk with me I'll still do my best to know them better. Maybe it's a bit late, it's our last year after all. But maybe some of us go to the same school after that, and not knowing anyone in a new school is horrible. I've expericened that a lot of times sicne we've moved around a lot.
And it always makes me happy with these people that ain't shy, that can ask you 'Hi, do you want to play with us?' I hope them the best of life.

This... Is actually the first time I really typed this out, and I'm sure you don't have the patience nor feeling to read all this. Just skip it and see it like something I needed to do. Write the feelings off. If I'm lucky I'll feel better about this and make some new friends. I'll do my best.


I'm such a coward.
(I should go sing Coward Montblanc.)






I'm to lazy to read through this. >8 So WHY 'ELLO THAR MISSPELLS AND GRAMATIC ERRORS.